Adrian: Do you not get it? (1) I am in no need to defend anything for anybody if it is not my kids. Do you not get that what you got in mind (2) did not happen in my mind thus the lack of motivation to even perplex the idea of entertaining the notion to defend anything or any body.
But I see, you want me to give in to your shit that in my mind did not take place. So what integrity are you talking about. All I am thinking about is how (3) you are allowing abuse to be done onto me and my children, but (4) you won't catch me begging you to get me out of the hole I dug, just so you can keep on putting in on front of my face thereafter. Hell no, if it ain't from your intuition of a social justice officer, then you ain't no social justice advocate by no means.
Me: How convenient. I should help you while your friends trample on me.
Absolutely I expect your protection just like a surgeon needs a clean table and clean tools. I won't work without the respect I need. I function only with clean energy around me.
It is all energy to me. Dirty souls, dirty outcome. Clean spirit, clean outcome.
Adrian: Great. Just be in good health and you'll do magnificently. Wonderful. Clear mind clear path. But I'm sure I will know (5) how you tried to have me be in a position to witness a persistent delusion similar to the one where you believe you'll ascend without removing the legal ankle-binding spirit to Earth, and (6)we will be here stuck for another 3600 years of futuristic hell once this window of ascension shuts down. But since (7) you know it all, what I think is pointless, I am reciprocating you by default. As if I had no integrity since you brought it up, it must be relevant.
Me: If you think I lie, we are nowhere. So what good can I do if I heal and must transform society unless my tools are the best. That is not arrogance. It is Life Mission, sacred work. If you doubt me then find somebody you trust. Otherwise I must be trusted.
If this is a new kind of friend, then fine. Don
t doubt what I say I do, or hear, or see. Also, what I do with this sacred knowledge is handled differently. So even when I know it, don't assume. I won't ever do as others do. Ever.
The job of an Indigo is to destroy the old and be weird. The job of a Blue Ray Way-Shower is to invent, transform, and heal at DNA level. We are not a perfect match. What you do appears extreme and harsh to me. What I do appears almost invisible to you. Energy transformation happens in scaffolding steps but to us permanent. I do it well if what I do is understood.
Maybe now you see why I must call them on their shit. It looks small to you, but it is never. You can do more when you see how and why I did it...in the long run, people only learn if you speak it. But I also heal it. Because it transforms after that. So let me do my job!
Adrian: I don't care to waste my time thinking about you're lying or not. I don't give a shit. (8) I know what I experienced and that's it. You're projecting shit that does not matter.
I am being threatened to attend court. I don't have time to waste with you on this shit. Can you not get that I don't give a shit to anything that does not pertain to my kids? God dammit. (9)Why can't I just get you to just fucking say aid support or help me get me my kids. Fuck! Fuck!
I can't be more forward. If you cannot (10) then we have no business with each other. I am fucking sick of you defending yourself. I don't give a shit, because it is taking time from me getting my fucking kids. (11) Get your head out of your ass. Fuck! I don't give a shit about Rosa's man. And what you think about him or me. But for sure, (12) I don't want you to care, nor need to care for me, if you're going to stand by witnessing me and my children being harassed and abused and you telling me you care. Fuck all that.
Me: Call and tell me. (13) Threatened by whom? Were you served?
What does being threatened mean? Recently?
Did you file those papers?
What do you care if you have to go to court. Go! Empower yourself. Get your share. Make it fun. Put the burden of proof on them.
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Summary of points highlighted above:
(1) Social accountability dictates that yes, he is in need of social consciousness. He can't exist in a vacuum not matter how convenient. Indigos always want to run away, it is typical. This can't happen. He has to engage society.
(2) If I hear the tree fell and you cut it, can I still arrest you? So he doesn't believe my accounts of things and goes to the man first, thus disempowering me, yet he needs my power. The good ol' boy network lives on. He is trying to say he is a step higher than women, but in this case he needs one. In fact he is the female and using me as the man. He wants to be nurtured and cared for. Interesting dynamic here.
(3) Now I am allowing abuse. Now he blames the help. So even though he despises me and would not talk to me, he forces himself to ask.
(4) If I tell you I won't fucking curse as in this example, then even if it was an example I did in fact. Reverse psychology. Adept at manipulation, blame, and guilt. If he did this to Juliana, then I can see how she might be very upset with him. So it is possible he used this strategy the whole time.
(5) Pairing two unequal and unrelated items. His lack of accountability equals My non-ascension.
(6) It is true this is 3rd dimension, but I don't believe it is my burden to rescue him from his lack once I put out the tools for comprehension. I even point out what I do and why I do it but that was not enough to kick start him. I introduced the idea that he can life up from the illusion. But he has bought into 3rd dimensional thinking to the degree that he remains part of the problem he is trying to counter. It is a perfect disguise and very convincing acting. He knows he is part of the play but he is lost in the scene. Very believing he will not ascend here.
(7) Projection, guilt, blame. He undermines my integrity and then assumes I must be questioning his. I guess I was. If I can't rely on him or trust him then how can I do my job?
(8) The gender game. The other man spoke and that is who he sides with. There is a term in his culture for women they use, as he is attempting to use me and keep me below him. This is male ego.
(9) He is not even clear on why he wants his kids. To teach them what? This is his time out, his lesson in what it means to collaborate and support, but he is sexist.
(10) The issue at hand is never the issue at hand. We have been a relationship. The children have been his excuse. It gets real so he threatens to terminate it because I ask for reciprocation. So I wait while men like him take what they need and walk away. He would, if he could only replace me, but he can't, and he is emotionally connected to me and so are the kids. Walk away from which part of the lesson? I am teaching far more here, in terms of compassion, role modeling. He came from a mother who was like me. I remind him of what he would have been, that he turned his back on. When does he come back up? The pendulum must swing the other way.
(11) Now he is just mad that he has to reciprocate. He can't do it by himself.
(12) When I say I care he milks it for what he can get. After all, who cared for him? Who has emotional attachment to a man with no resources? He begs for attachment, but it is begging. He is caught.
(13) To which NEW threat does he refer? He is coming down off a high. The origin of the pain is not in whether or not he has children, it is the pain of a Starseed who is in a very barren situation where he has placed himself. A gang member-type scene, a tattooed body, an origin that was Arcturian and he calls himself a parallel me. What is he exactly? There is in fact no threat. His children are well and they are stable. They are also Aries and can more than handle their dad. The threat here is in feeling. He pushes away the lessons of bonding and collaboration. He is a loner. For me, the lesson is to remind and to not attach to his pain. I am the support who teaches him there are two sides to deeper emotion. My focus is on healing pain, DNA activation, and helping Starseeds remember their origin.
My goals in this interaction are:
DNA activation. He is stuck in 3rd dimension and needs to awaken more to give up the drugs. The drugs also connect him to those who he needs to heal, so that is his workspace and I must honor that. He is in Vallejo for the same reason I am- go where you are needed.
Cultural exposure. I did not see how Mexicans live. I did not even imagine how poor their state is. They will elevate from that place, but in the mean time, I do influence those life paths, and especially the girl with the microchip who will become a doctor.
