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Chaos, such behavior like the term strings attached you said you avoid ppl who refer to such phrase, like wise I do not deal with people who can not or are not experienced in dealing constructively with their unresolved emotions. Business like and professional when dealing with personal friends.This these will keep us friends for a long time. You've seen how I go about, when cash is available,
I distribute it accordingly. Last night's drama will not be tolerated it from no one. inviting innocent neighbor's ears and minds is disrespectful. I am not done telling you the one huge complaint on you yet. Adressing your last text follows.
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I see all of it. You just think I don't know. But maybe I care and maybe that is more important.
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Who are you referring to when someone may care about me in this world. My communication skills are about as sharp as they will ever be at the present moment . I don't want to be picked up. We can still constructively engage in conversation.
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When I tell you I have a problem with a sexual deviant but you cant address it because the party is on him, then you are a slave. And you are in danger. Party down. I value your life much more than being in denial. This message complements of my guides. Tell me if they are wrong, because they never are. Who cares? I am the one. I care. Me.
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No possible way you could be right (message from spirit guides) in regard to the nonexistent things (-drugs, he avoids the word) you are texting about. I am not partying. I am not bought off. (really?) Predominantly brave and courageous on your own, according to your lived experiences, to pretend you needed anybody to protect you. All this is exactly the point where I dont believe you, forget it. (He will not protect a woman from a man's aggression) I am wasting energy and effort trying to give you the actual truth, but if you are going to persist in trying to make me believe your story of events. It's not going to happen.
I have my own lived experiences where only I am making choices in how I carry myself, that guy Arnold, has not behave on any way or manner to make me think to believe he would disrespect the place he just got shelter at. (Homeless drug dealers that he guesses must be nice though he never saw the guy before but believes he is the kind who will kill somebody for a mere $50). Finally brought it to his attention, to hear his version (like the guy speaks to Rosa in English and says "hey lady look") of events, to discern accurately, and he simply said your out of your mind, as he was not paying attention to you while he had Rosa on the phone, as I can confirm because I heard him talking to her. by anybody and this within itself it is a waste of time. You were never in no emminent danger and for me to protect a woman of your size you are yourself.
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Notes:
Adrian left 43 messages after this point, until 3:00 in the morning. Accusing my spirit guides of being incompetent, accusing me of not knowing what I was talking about. He denied using drugs though I never mentioned them directly, I just said he had been bought off. I can tell I pushed a nerve button because of all the talking and anger and denial. Yet I can also see the warning about "Arnold" got through. He did not deny telling me the guy kills people for $50. He did tell me that people get money as he finds they are deserving (pay off, see in green above) and this scorpio maneuver is huge and dangerous if he had more money!
In the 43 texts that follow he continues to tell me I am not attractive, he would not touch me, he needs my help, I should feel required or obligated because he suffers and is in pain and hates his life. So who is manipulating whom? His goal is to get that woman to support him for the rest of his life. So he will have $440 per month, which is $10 per week, to buy drugs! With simple business skills that will attract people over to share their crack with him so that he can quadruple his drug intake and make crack friends. I read that a crack addict will lie with no problem. I saw the dirty ear cleaner on the floor, and now I know why he sweeps his floor. He knows I am a witness. He wants to confuse me becaue he did not clean up well enough. He thinks if it is always disguised as a brown cigarette I will not know what it really is so he re-rolls them into the tiny cigars and carries the cigar box everywhere, yet I never see him smoke one because he always does it in the bathroom by the vent.
Useful Links here:
http://www.addictionsandrecovery.org/cocaine.htm
Cocaine is so addictive that if you give a mouse a hit of cocaine every time it presses a lever, it will do nothing else but press that lever. It won't stop for a minute to take a sip of water or a bite to eat, and eventually it will die from a cocaine overdose. The only thing that prevents people from overdosing on crack is their bank account. Once people are addicted to crack, they will sell their soul for another hit.
The Consequences of Cocaine Use
Cocaine is a stimulant, therefore it causes your heart to beat faster and your blood vessels to constrict, which can lead to high blood pressure, heart attacks, and strokes. Heart attacks in young patients without a history of heart disease are so frequently due to cocaine that emergency room doctors are taught to consider it as one of the first diagnoses.(1)Cocaine is an important cause of cardiac arrest.
Cocaine causes your heart to speed up, and in some cases go so fast that it actually stops. (Users take beer to slow it down again so they dont O.D.) What is especially deadly about cocaine is that there is no correlation between how many times you've used cocaine or how much you used, and when you will suffer a cardiac arrest. Some people die after their first use. Other people have used cocaine hundreds of times, and then drop dead on the very next time. Some university athletes who suddenly drop dead are discovered to have died from a cocaine induced cardiac arrest.
As with all drugs, the most important consequences of cocaine addiction are psychological, social, and emotional. But with cocaine they happen faster and harder than with other drugs. If you are a cocaine addict, you don't have to wonder if you've hurt your friends and family. You can be sure that you have.
The broader consequences of addiction. Look at the disease of addiction page to learn more about the broader consequences of addiction.
Withdrawal Symptoms
The withdrawal symptoms of cocaine are emotional.There are no physical withdrawal symptoms from cocaine, which is why people sometimes trick themselves into thinking they aren't addicted to it. "I'm not physically addicted to cocaine." But there's no physical addiction and non-physical addiction – there's just addiction. All addiction occurs in the brain.Even though there are no physical withdrawal symptoms, cocaine still satisfies the criteria of addiction. People have difficulty controlling how much they use, and they continue to use even though it has negative consequences to their life.
The emotional withdrawal symptoms of cocaine are:
- Tiredness (When I am not there sleeps until 2PM)
- Depression (He blames wife and not having kids for this)
- Anxiety (Again, be blames wife and kids)
- Moodiness
- Mood swings (Rght after a drag he is contentious, argumentative, and haughty)
- Variable energy(He mostly just stays home)
- Low enthusiasm (He reads and obsesses)
- Poor concentration (He studders and can't finish sentences)
- Sleep disturbances (Adrian doesnt sleep at all)
Cross Addiction
Most cocaine addicts struggle with the idea of total abstinence. If you're addicted to cocaine, you know you never want to use cocaine again. Cocaine has ruined your life, it has cost you a lot of money, but you're not sure about stopping alcohol. Maybe alcohol has never been a problem. But because of cross addiction, if you want to stop using cocaine you must also stop all addictive drugs including alcohol and marijuana.Alcohol is a common trigger for cocaine use. You'll start with just a few drinks a week. Maybe you'll drink moderately for weeks or even months without using cocaine. But then one week, you'll have a bad week. Bad things happen. During that week, everything will go wrong. You'll be stressed out at work. You'll have an argument at home. And by the end of the week, you'll really want a drink. But instead of just a few drinks, you'll want maybe three or four drinks to take the edge off. After the first one or two drinks, your inhibitions will be lower. After two or three drinks, you'll reach a magic number, and your brain will suddenly say "Bingo. I remember this feeling, and I remember something that feels even better." And you'll be off using again.
Recovery requires total abstinence. (Reference: www.AddictionsAndRecovery.org)
An Addiction-Alcoholism Test/ Am I Addicted?
Here are three tests to help you decide if you have an addiction.
The CAGE Test for Alcohol Addiction
This simple test is surprisingly accurate. Answer yes or no to each question.(1)- Have you ever thought you should Cut down your drinking? No
- Have you ever felt Annoyed when people have commented on your drinking? No
- Have you ever felt Guilty or badly about your drinking? No
- Have you ever had an Eye opener first thing in the morning to steady your nerves or get rid of a hangover? No
Score one point for each yes answer.
If you scored 1, there is an 80% chance you're addicted to alcohol.
If you scored 2, there is an 89% chance you're addicted to alcohol.
If you scored 3, there is a 99% chance you're addicted to alcohol.
If you scored 4, there is a 100% chance you're addicted to alcohol.
The Modified CAGE Test for All Addictions
Most self-test questionnaires apply to alcohol addiction, but can be easily adapted to any addiction.- Have you ever thought you should Cut down your drug or alcohol use? Yes
- Have you ever felt Annoyed when people have commented on your use? YES
- Have you ever felt Guilty or badly about your use? Yes
- Have you ever used drugs to Ease withdrawal symptoms, or to avoid feeling low after using? Yes
The AUDIT Test for Alcohol Addiction (Alcoholism)
The AUDIT (Alcohol Use Disorders Identification Test) was developed by the World Health Organization (WHO). The test correctly classifies 95% of people into either alcoholics or non-alcoholics. It was tested on 2000 people before being published. (The pdf format version of the AUDIT is available through the WHO website. Copyright 1993 World Health Organization.)(2)To correctly answer some of these questions you need to know the definition of a drink. For this test one drink is:
One can of beer (12 oz or approx 330 ml of 5% alcohol), or
One glass of wine (5 oz or approx 140 ml of 12% alcohol), or
One shot of liquor (1.5 oz or approx 40 ml of 40% alcohol).
1. How often do you have a smoke.snort drink crack hits containing alcohol crack hits?
Never (score 0)
Monthly or Less (score 1)
2-4 times a month (score 2)
2-3 times a week (score 3) 3
4 or more times a week (score 4) 4
2. How many alcoholic drinks crack hits do you have on a typical day when you are Indulging drinking?
1 or 2 (0) 0
3 or 4 (1)
5 or 6 (2) 2
7-9 (3)
10 or more (4)
3. How often do you have 6 or more drinks crack hits on one occasion?
Never (0)
Less than monthly (1) 1
Monthly (2)
Weekly (3)
Daily or almost daily (4) 4
4. How often during the past year have you found that you indulged drank more or for a longer time than you intended?
Never (0)
Less than monthly (1) 1
Monthly (2)
Weekly (3) 3
Daily or almost daily (4)
5. How often during the past year have you failed to do what was normally expected of you because of your crack hits drinking?
Never (0) 0
Less than monthly (1) 1
Monthly (2)
Weekly (3)
Daily or almost daily (4)
6. How often during the past year have you had crack hits a drink in the morning to get yourself going after a heavy drinking session?
Never (0) 0
Less than monthly (1)
Monthly (2)
Weekly (3)
Daily or almost daily (4) 4
7. How often during the past year have you felt guilty or remorseful after crack hits drinking?
Never (0) 0
Less than monthly (1) 1
Monthly (2)
Weekly (3)
Daily or almost daily (4)
8. How often during the past year have you been unable to remember what happened the night before because of your crack hits drinking?
Never (0) 0
Less than monthly (1)
Monthly (2) 2
Weekly (3)
Daily or almost daily (4)
9. Have you or anyone else been injured as a result of your crack hits drinking?
No (0) 0 0
Yes, but not in the past year (2)
Yes, during the past year (4)
10. Has a relative, friend, doctor, or health care worker been concerned about your crack hits drinking, or suggested that you cut down?
No (0)
Yes, but not in the past year (2)
Yes, during the past year (4) 4
Your score: 5 25
If you scored 8-10 or more, you are probably addicted to crack hits alcohol.
It may seem like the AUDIT questionnaire is an easy test to fail. If you applied this test to other aspects of your life you will almost certainly come up as being addicted to something. For example, most people watch too much television, or eat too much of their favorite food. But those are so-called "soft addictions", and the AUDIT questionnaire was not designed to assess them. It is extremely reliable when it comes to assessing alcohol crack hits addiction.
